So little money yet so much to buy

I have a feeling my credit card and bank are going to be drained the next few weeks. I've found myself making longer and longer lists of stuff that I want to buy. A new bike, new summer clothes, more ps2 games, an xbox, a new pc, a bigger tv, etc. etc. etc. It's just so much >.>
All I can do is hope that my tax return arrives quick enough to help lessen the blow on my wallet.

Other then money woes, their isn't really all that much happening in my life right now to blog about so I'll just recap my last 2 weeks to fill up space xD

Last, last weekend was pretty "interesting". After work on Thursday, Leo abandoned everyone after pool and came over with Calum. Wasted some time on watching crap on Youtube,, and then played some NFS carbon. Anyway they both leave at like 11 and I go to sleep. 3 hours later, at like 2 am, my mom starts flipping out because she thinks Calum took her purse(personally I blame his shifty appearance for the accusation). Of course my mom ends up finding it the next day and I barely got any sleep because of it.

The week itself was boring, nothing happened at all other then work(so fun ugh).

The next weekend, which was last weekend now I guess, I camped out at Duy's house for 3 days straight. PS3 + GTA IV = Fun. I started playing Kingdom Hearts too, which is great so far. Oh and I learned that Family Feud can be addictive.

And this week the only really notable thing is that I started watching Death Note(yes finally). It's awesome so far, I hope it keeps up like this for the whole series.

So yeah thats been my last 2 weeks pretty much.

PS: if anyone wants to come waste money with me at yorkdale on like friday let me know, i'm probably going to go buy some summer stuff

I'm starting to hate my job

Let's go way back to when I started. My first day was extremely boring and it was kinda hard on my feet because I wasn't used to standing for 8 hours. I immediately thought of quitting because it was sooooo boring. But it only took me a week to get used to everything and so I was alright with my position(which was way easier then my last job). Now recently my indifferent feelings towards work have changed. Why? Mostly because of the new lame ass manager and his analicity(coining this term btw) towards HBC credit card acquisitions("instant credits") and credit blend(meaning the % of total transactions that are paid for with the HBC credit card).

Now because of this guy my manager is constantly on my ass about my credit blend and my instant credits. She even wants me to go to like some lame instant credit training meeting now. It's so stupid that they expect me to get a certain amount a week or whatever just because person x did. Most of the "person x's" are complete douchebags who use underhanded tactics like making up bullshit about the card or going into other departments looking for customers with a ton of merchandise(because the customer can get 10% off all that stuff by applying). Now because I'm such a *cough*nice and honest*cough* guy I refuse to do that kind of shit. If a customer says no I leave it at that.

It's really not my fault that I'm not up to "expectations". I barely get any traffic right now and the few customers I do get just plain don't want to use our crappy credit card(I can't blame them because personally, I rather use my Visa too).

Ah well I guess it's normal to hate your job eventually, just too bad it happened so soon. It was like 10 months into my last job before I started to hate it.

At least the rest of my week was good. I finally got my G1 after putting it off for like 2 years. Grats to Duy and PA for getting it too <3(we should "borrow" Leo's car and start learning to actually drive now). Oh and yeah also got to see Iron Man, which was awesome. Too bad we didn't stay for the hidden scene after the credits. Iron Man put me in the mood for superhero movies. I can't wait to see The Dark Knight when it comes out now.

My whole body is sore..

..after attending three concerts in seven days(look at my poor arm, huge bruise :( ). Now as everyone who is going to read this has probably never attended(and never will xD) a metal concert, I feel I should explain how crazy the crowds can get. Just try to imagine 200+ people all bunched together with barely enough room to breathe. Now imagine that same situation with all those people pushing and shoving in every direction. Oh and don't forget people crushing you from above and kicking you in the head as they try to surf the crowd. It ends up being a pretty intense workout because your constantly trying to push people away while trying to keep your balance so you don't fall over and get crushed. As most of the concerts I go to are like this, I'm sure you can see why I'm exhausted after three of them.

Anyway the concerts were:
Kalmah(melodic death metal)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UT32PE47gqo http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rRsdU-kh_pw

Kalmah was great to see live, especially from front row where I was. The venue didn't have anything separating the stage from the crowd so I was about half a meter away from the band. Too bad my legs got crushed against the stage for most of it though.

Paganfest with Tyr, Turisas and Ensiferum(folk metal bands, I went mainly for Ensiferum)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=12x87jtmcwI
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uKZd4U397M4

This was definitely the best concert out of the three. I ended up in a great spot right along front row around the left side of the stage. In this spot I was barely pushed around, if at all. On to the the bands: Tyr was meh, never really listened to them much so I wasn't really into their set. Turisas was on next, and again I never really listened to them much, but they were much more energetic then Tyr and I actually enjoyed a few of the songs. Ensiferum was on last and they were great as usual. They played most of the songs I wanted to hear so I was pretty pleased by the end of the show. It was just too bad that the TTC decided to go on strike about 10 minutes after the whole thing ended. But I got home fairly quickly regardless(thanks Leo) so it was a still a great night.

Gigantour with Children of Bodom(melodic death metal), In Flames(melodic death metal), and Megadeth(thrash metal)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tjZpqgeiGFQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FW6WY-YB7wY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rtsD2tBPZgo

Gigantour was probably the most intense out of the three concerts. And when I say intense I mean the crowd. After the second band I had to step out and grab a drink because I was just so exhausted(and not to mention completely soaked in sweat). Children of Bodom was on first and they were pretty decent. They didn't play enough material that I recognized though. In Flames was second and they were so-so. Played too much of their crappy new material instead of the older/far better material they have. Megadeth was on last and they definatly stole the show for me. Great set with most of the songs I was looking forward too. Only bad part of the night was being dropped off at 11:45 in the middle of nowhere around Warden and St. Clair(it took me like an hour to get home).


So that ends my late April concert spree. I deserve a good few weeks break now. Hopefully I won't have too many concerts to go to during the summer because the heat is just going to be brutal with the intense crowds :(

The social music revolution

Last.fm is a great site and I thought I'd post about. It "scrobbles" all the music you listen to and puts it up on your own personal page for the world to see.

It's actually quite interesting to watch your listening habits and stuff for the week. I've realized lately how weird my musical tastes have become because of this.

People have also created pages that will take the info from your last.fm page, do some fancy math with it, and come up with stuff like an "open mind index"(which rates your open mindedness towards musical styles).

Overall I think the most useful feature on the site is the similar artist lists that they give you. The lists are generated by tags which are created by users(not some random idiot) so they tend to be really accurate(unlike most music sites). So if you feel like listening to something new you can just click onto one of the similar artists from a band you like and then go and youtube some of the popular songs from that artist(which are conveniently listed on the page for you) to see if your into them or not.

Last.fm has more features like ranking your similarity to other users, concert/event listings, etc. etc. etc. Too lazy to explain in detail about the rest so yeah just sign up if you haven't and try it out.

PS no this isn't an ad for last.fm I just think the site is cool, oh and my page is last.fm/holymnky

Like the Eric Idle song says.."Always look at the bright side of life"

In direct contrast to my last post, I'd like to reflect on how dropping out of high school has actually been somewhat beneficial for me. And of course, I'm not going to sit here and advocate that dropping out is a good thing by any means. Just that it has created some positive changes for me.

Now when I dropped out I was partially forced into getting a real job(and not like one dumping newspapers). Actually getting that first job was a good experience for me. I started to learn how to manage my own money, I lost a bit of weight, and I actually started to care about how I looked around other people. To be quite honest though that job was not the greatest and I did quit right after my mom was fired for some total BS. And I sort of slumped back into laziness for the summer when I quit.

My second job, the job I have now, is what really opened my eyes up to life. I completely changed my eating habits and I started to lose more weight again. And I fully started to care what I look like. I feel like a completely different person then I was a year or two years ago and it feels good. Talk about a job with benefits amirite?

So getting almost about a year and a half of work experience(I guess "life experience" too) and the fact that I actually take care for myself now, has made the last two years at least somewhat decent. So yeah, life really isn't always that bad..

"Never regret. If it's good, it's wonderful. If it's bad, it's experience." Easy for her to say..

/startemo
Sometimes I find myself depressed with my life. No, it's not like my life is hard or I have it rough. It's just that I tend to regret some of my past choices. I try to look pass my stupid choices and think of it as "life experience" but it's hard to convince myself that at times. Most/all of my regrets are from my mid-teens/high school. I feel like I've missed out on so much. I didn't make that many friends, I never joined any teams, I never tried hard at schoolwork, I never really took care of myself like I do now, I didn't care much about my appearance, etc. etc. etc. I basically never put effort into anything important.

The fact that I wasn't very social is probably the most depressing for me. I sometimes feel like a bit of a social outcast because I have so few friends and pretty much all of them are guys. Now that I've cut back considerably on video games, I find myself constantly bored. I wish I knew more people that I could just go out and do stuff with. Be it drinking, going to eat, movies, parties, just hanging out, whatever.

Though recently, I have actually been doing a bit of social stuff and going out(at least on weekends) which is slightly reassuring. Another thing that is reassuring(in all the wrong ways) is this guy that I know online. He's 22, still lives at home, has no job, and has no friends apart from 2-3 online. I can always look at him when I'm bummed and think "at least I'm not THAT bad".

Anyway, I'll probably have more success socially in the future(like College) and I can look back at myself and laugh at how stupid the way I'm feeling right now is.
/endemo

Blogging eh

So it seems everyone has a blog...I guess its time I finally made one. Now you can read about my random musings and boring life! How exciting!

So yes, on to business. I have decided(finally) that I want to go and get my 8 or 10 or whatever credits I need for High School instead of failing and just settling for a GED. Yes it will take me another year but I'm only 19 and another year isn't going to hurt me if its going to get me into a half-decent University/College. Also on the business front, I still plan to move out sometime in June. Hopefully its not too far because I need closeness for work and stuff.

Ok back to watching stuff now, I have like a million movies and 4-5 animes to watch. Busy busy..


ps I know the background and banner don't really match, I'll fix it later too lazy atm